Got Resolutions? Phooey!
Well, folks, 2009 is only hours away, but I wanted to take a few minutes to reflect on the past 12 months and to look ahead to a bright new year. Before I started writing this post I could only remember the many resolutions I made last December – and then broke. In fact, none of my resolutions panned out the way I envisioned. But sitting yesterday at work, done with cleaning out my files and unable to blog due to new LAN settings (grrrr – I guess I can’t even do this on my lunch hour anymore), I began to view my results a little differently:
I still swore some…but I swore less. Fucking great, right?! (Ha, you knew I had to add that in!)
I didn’t move my body as much as I should have, and, frankly, gained 10 pounds as a result – not so great considering I had already gained many pounds on top of that in the past five years. I have, however, accepted my decisions, good and bad, and acknowledge enough is enough. And so we try again.
One new-old activity I did try: I bought a bike and rode for the first time in years – how I’d forgotten how fun and freeing riding can be! And for what little activity my body got in the last 12 months, my mind and heart were more active than I ever thought possible. Not so bad…
Resolutions and reflections wouldn’t be complete without some mention of my novel or writing. I became a regular contributor online. I met some really cool people and made new writing connections, some I haven’t even written about here. Plus, I polished my novel and got a few literary agents interested enough to request and read my partial and/or full manuscript — albeit, all rejecting it in the end. There’s really no down side to that, though; it leaves me with hope because not everyone gets that far. I have my next round of agents to contact in January, but am 100% at peace if I can’t get it published because I have more writing (and I suspect even better writing) in me. My energy is telling me to move on, which brings me to…
…I didn’t start the novel I briefly sketched out last fall, but it’s still bouncing around in my head. Plus, I recently came up with an idea for a nonfiction book that I think might work…and a few articles I’d like to pitch…hmmm. So many possibilities!
One or two people have suggested that maybe the book (and even this blog) was to help me sort through a trying time in my life. Maybe, although I think any writer would tell you that paying for therapy is a lot easier! The one thing I know is that I’d like to do this in some form over the long-haul, whatever that means.
I’m not sure how random my kindness was in 2008, but I continued volunteering for an organization helping single mothers that I believe in and attempted to do a better job at showing – and telling – my friends and family how much they mean to me. It really is true that you get what you give, and I’ve received a lot of love and fulfillment in return.
As far as my piano-playing, well, let’s just say it remained an expensive piece of quiet furniture. Looks nice, though.
I had loads of fun this year, even without signing up for the NanoWrimo (not the NoBloMoMo) Big Fun Scary Challenge. Do you think I could go in and retroactively check off the fact I jumped out of a plane? Or went to Chicago to hang with my cousin and pals? Or sent my novel out into the world of publishing (with a few supportive words from a couple of wise guys)? Or went to my first professional football and hockey games (go Steelers and Pens!)? Or took a chance on love again?
(Or continually amuse myself when I sometimes write melodramatic things like “took a chance on love again” as if doing a voiceover for a Lifetime movie?)
Yeah, I’d say 2008 was a good year.
Here’s to ’09 – with no planning ahead!
PS. What’s not in your plans for the New Year??